Whew!

This sweet, handsome little man scared his Mommy to death tonight. I had just put him in his crib turned my back to get his blanket out of his glider and all I hear is bam. I turned around to see my sweet baby layed out on his back in the floor. I have no clue how he did it so fast, but my guess is that he wasn't trying to actually get out, but leaned over the front of his crib too far, lost his balance and there he went. Either way it is time for his toddler rail to go up. Over the past couple weeks he has tried stepping on his bumper to boost himself up, but I'm not so sure that is what happened tonight. I'm just glad I was right there to get him. I'm still shaken up by the whole. Bless his heart- it scared him too.

Happy Friday!

Hope everyone had a good week and will have an even better weekend! We (Bay and I) kicked off our weekend by having a lazy day at home today. We'll be in Birmingham tomorrow morning. Then hoping to relax with some sun, fun, and water. We're gearing up for another beach trip next week and we CANNOT wait. The beach never gets old. So if this weekend wants to speed on by- we won't complain.

Good To Go!

I ended up back at ART Friday morning for baseline blood work (FSH-follicle stimulating hormone, LH-luteinizing hormone, and E2-estrogen) and a baseline ultrasound. All of my hormones were in normal range and my ultrasound looked good with at least 15 antral follicles on each ovary, no ovarian cysts, and a good uterine lining. All this means that my body is ready to start meds which I will do this Monday. Another perk of Letrazole (femara) other than a decrease in all the side effects is it cost under $5.00- Hallelujah!

If I don't have any problems next week my next appointment will be next Saturday morning at 8:15 in the Birmingham office. Yep that means we'll be up and on the road bright and early. The Montgomery office is closed on the weekends so if any of my monitoring days fall on the weekend we must head to Brookwood Hospital (main ART location).

That's it for now. Hope everyone is enjoying this rainy weekend- relaxing somewhere!

20 Months!

Our Sweet Boy turned 20 months yesterday. Is he really going to be 2 in 4 short months?! Sigh! He is such a sweet, loving, silly, strong-willed, handsome (and pretty) little boy. We just love him so much. I could never come close to describing how much he means to both me and his Daddy.

Here are some recent pictures of what he's been up to!

Looking sweet! I just love this face!!




In his football stance playing with Daddy!


On the potty for the first time. I'm sure you can by his face he is thinking " why are y'all staring at me?!"


Cutie-Pie! Oh and yes he has used it. The second day we put him on it and went! He was so proud so was his Mommy. Daddy missed it, but we took a picture- HA!


Nana and Papa bought him a sandbox!




He's also getting in his last couple teeth. This is a face he makes when his mouth hurts. Poor Baby!


Lots of fun in the sun and water. He would live outside and in the Wa Wa if he could. He loves it! He has the cutest little tan line to prove it too.


Carrying his Mickey luggage for his toys that Granna bought him.


He is such a big boy carrying it around. I've caught him several times sitting in it.

Silly boy- He likes to put his fingers and his ears and yell 'Mama, Mama, Mama" or sing. He thinks he is so funny when he does this and we think so too!

Here We Go Again...

As promised here is a little recap from my 3 1/2 hour appointment with my fertility doctor from ART:

1. Physical Exam- Had not even crossed my mind that I would have to have an exam today, but I did. They took some samples for a few test and said everything looked and felt ok.

2. Meeting with the Doctor- She went over our previous treatments, tests, and surgeries. Then we we started to talk about trying to conceive this go around- trying for 9 months with 2 rounds of clomid and the last one being successful ending in a miscarriage.
- Her first recommendation was for us to switch from the Clomid to Letrazole (Femara). Her
reasoning was the minimal side effects of femara opposed to clomid (less hot flashes,
moodiness, thinning of the uterine lining, and another you don't want me to get in to on
here.

-I will start it Cycle Day 5 of THIS cycle!! This made me one very happy girl, to hear we do not
have to wait to start trying again.

- I will go in anytime between CD 1 and CD 4 for some pre labs and ultrasound this will help
determine one BIG concern she has in regards to my eggs. Based on my history and the way
I responded to my IVF cycle there is a question regarding my eggs aging prematurely. I
seriously thought I was going to lose it when she said that today for the first time. On top of
possibility of them aging early- the quality may not be good of the eggs I am producing. Again
very scary for someone my age, but the good thing my age is on my side even if the results
aren't great. She asked today how many children we wanted and she thought our number was
perfect! :)

3. After meeting with Dr.H. I moved on to the lab for blood work. I will get those results tomorrow. The only two things being tested today was my thyroid and a pregnancy test to make sure my hormones have come back down. I will go back in later this week or next for more labs- fasting insulin, CBC, and CMP.

4.Then finally I met with nursing who went over my calendar and what days I need to come in and what to do on each cycle day- labs, ultrasound, meds, trigger shot, ovulation tests, progesterone, etc.

I hate Jonathan couldn't make the appointment. He was missed by the sweet ladies at ART. We are very pleased and ready to start trying again. Thank you again for all the prayers. They are being felt!

How Great is Our God!

In the midst of our sadness yesterday was also such an exciting time for us. The long awaited arrival of a sweet little Miracle, Easton James Wagner! Lindsey and I have been friends since childhood and have continued our friendship through our school years, pledging Alpha Gam together, being in each other's weddings, and also going through infertility together.

If you ever gone through fertility struggles you come to realize that unless someone has gone through the same struggle - it's hard for them to relate. Thankfully the Lord brought Linds and I through our struggles at the same time. We talked, compared treatments and diagnosis', vented, cried, and rejoiced over the birth of Baylor and now the birth of Easton. Jonathan and I are so blessed to have the Wagner's in our life. We know we will all continue to be life-long friends along with buddies Easton and Bay!

Easton and his Proud Mommy!


Beautiful Miracle!


Love this little boy!

Us Mom's holding each other's boys!

Jonathan was just as excited as I was!

God Bless the Wagner family of 3. Their faithfulness to the Lord throughout these tough years has been an incredible example for other's to be led.

On a little side note- I would like to thank each and every one of you that has taken the time to comment me on FB, message me, text, and pray for us during this time. As I mentioned last night I really struggled with knowing if coming out with something so personal was the right thing to do. After hearing from so many of you: those who have also suffered a miscarriage(s), those who are suffering from infertility and reminded me last night how much of an inspiration I was for opening up, and those that just wanted to pray for us -really helped confirm my decision to share our loss.

Tomorrow morning is my appointment with my Fertility Doctor from ART. I will try and post an update tomorrow evening. I'm returning to work tomorrow after being out a week. Please continue to pray for strength and comfort for me as I return to my "normal" schedule.

A Loss..

I've gone back and fourth on whether or not I should post this on our blog, but believe I've been very open along the way to conceive Baylor so I thought I should do the same now. Jonathan and I have been trying to conceive again since Baylor's first Birthday. So many people said I bet it will happen fast this time around- not exactly true. We've been trying for 9 months with the last two cycles on Clomid. We were very blessed to find out last weekend that our 2nd round was a success. You couldn't wipe the grins off our faces. We made a little shirt for Baylor to where told my Mom and brother's family in person and sent a text to Jonathan's family with Bay wearing his Big Bro shirt along with one of my favorite scriptures... "From the fullness of his grace we have all received one blessing after another." John 1:16 Well the the excitement of it all suddenly came to a stop on Tuesday, when I went in for lab work. I got a call around lunch time that my HCG (Beta) was low along with my progesterone. I was told to stop my progesterone supplements and come back in on Thursday to make sure my numbers were back down to zero. We were devastated. I went back in and to every one's surprise my HCG doubled and my progesterone increased a little. I was told to start back my progesterone and increase it and come back Monday. Well today was followed by crushing news again. I am indeed having a miscarriage. Even though we've had a roller coaster of a week, it didn't make it any easier.

This is our first lost. We've dealt with the pain of infertility, but never a lost- until now. We thank God daily for our beautiful gift, Baylor. Jonathan and I thank him even more now. I think having Bay helps cope with the pain. He really can bring a smile to my face no matter the amount of pain I'm going through.

I met with a fertility doctor from Mobile a few weeks before finding out I was pregnant and also have a consult with my doctor from ART this Wednesday. I've had this appointment scheduled for over a month. Funny how God's timing works out! I will keep everyone posted on what her recommendations are for us moving on. I can tell you without a doubt we are ready to try again ASAP.

If any of you have suffered a miscarriage and have any useful information you would like to pass on- I'm all ears. Please keep us in your prayers as we cope with the loss of our baby.

Water Park!

Saturday morning Jonathan, Bay, my mom, and I loaded up and headed to Alabama Adventure in Bessemer- we had a blast!

Here are some pictures I took:

Daddy and Bay going down the slide for the first time!


These slides were Baylor's favorite thing!

Jonathan and I rode these slides many times.

He loved being able to walk throughout the whole Kiddie area.

Big Boy eating lunch!

If you look in the center of this play area you will see Jonathan and Bay in line for the big slide!

They got sprayed by the big bucket several times while waiting in line.

Almost our turn!

Here they come...

He thought he was so big!

Of course he loved it.

Now going down the slides by himself!

He had to do it over and over again!

Getting sprayed!

WOW!

Riding the trucks with Mommy!

Carousel with Daddy!

We'll be returning to AA. The park was actually very clean and had lots of things for Baylor to do. Another plus isn't wasn't that crowded. Hope everyone else is enjoying their Fourth of July weekend!