Monday, July 11, 2011

A Loss..

I've gone back and fourth on whether or not I should post this on our blog, but believe I've been very open along the way to conceive Baylor so I thought I should do the same now. Jonathan and I have been trying to conceive again since Baylor's first Birthday. So many people said I bet it will happen fast this time around- not exactly true. We've been trying for 9 months with the last two cycles on Clomid. We were very blessed to find out last weekend that our 2nd round was a success. You couldn't wipe the grins off our faces. We made a little shirt for Baylor to where told my Mom and brother's family in person and sent a text to Jonathan's family with Bay wearing his Big Bro shirt along with one of my favorite scriptures... "From the fullness of his grace we have all received one blessing after another." John 1:16 Well the the excitement of it all suddenly came to a stop on Tuesday, when I went in for lab work. I got a call around lunch time that my HCG (Beta) was low along with my progesterone. I was told to stop my progesterone supplements and come back in on Thursday to make sure my numbers were back down to zero. We were devastated. I went back in and to every one's surprise my HCG doubled and my progesterone increased a little. I was told to start back my progesterone and increase it and come back Monday. Well today was followed by crushing news again. I am indeed having a miscarriage. Even though we've had a roller coaster of a week, it didn't make it any easier.

This is our first lost. We've dealt with the pain of infertility, but never a lost- until now. We thank God daily for our beautiful gift, Baylor. Jonathan and I thank him even more now. I think having Bay helps cope with the pain. He really can bring a smile to my face no matter the amount of pain I'm going through.

I met with a fertility doctor from Mobile a few weeks before finding out I was pregnant and also have a consult with my doctor from ART this Wednesday. I've had this appointment scheduled for over a month. Funny how God's timing works out! I will keep everyone posted on what her recommendations are for us moving on. I can tell you without a doubt we are ready to try again ASAP.

If any of you have suffered a miscarriage and have any useful information you would like to pass on- I'm all ears. Please keep us in your prayers as we cope with the loss of our baby.

6 comments:

The Howell's said...

So sorry to hear of this loss. I will be praying for all of you!

Margaret said...

Oh so sorry to read this. Defintely praying for you and your family. And God bless that sweet Baylor. I can't imagine how much happiness he is bringing you through all this.

The Olives said...

Oh, Jessica, I am so sorry. I will be praying for ya'll!!!

Mommy and a Ministry said...

Praying for you and your family.

Blair said...

Oh Jessica, my heart breaks for you and what y'all are going through. You all will be in our prayers! You know as well as anyone that God can work miracles, so we'll be praying for another!

Mary Frances Stanford said...

I don't even know you personally, but this brought me to tears. I praise the Lord for your willingness to trust Him and rest in His love and will for you guys. We will definitely be praying!